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Showreels – reeling them in!

DIY - filming

DIY – filming

There was a time when you didn’t need one, but in today’s work of multimedia, well, you got to have one.  We have camera’s on our phones, so at least it doesn’t have to be impossible, but it may not be high quality.  These are vital, not just for actors, but for singers as well.  I’ve had so many people give me work, just based on my singing showreel.  If you are one of those actors like me who can do both, than have both, don’t just put them into one reel – have 2!

How do you get that elusive showreel?

There are lots of ways to do this, but the 1st thing I’ll say, is it’s gonna take a bit of time and effort, but it’s worth it!

  1. students films – find any local film schools and get yourself in touch with them, so you can do some short films or even features with the strong and strict proviso that the student will give you a copy and ask by when!  So you can get onto them if they don’t get it to you by their due date.  Best situation for this is when it’s an assignment, so they have to get it in as part of their school work, then you know there’s more incentive to get it in on time.
  2. DIY – do your own, this is really great, if you are needing a specific type you need to add to your reel, you get to know people in your local area who have the equipment and either to swap of skills or agree some sort of terms as to why your team is willing to do it for nothing or next to nothing, so that it’s all up front and not some people are getting paid and others aren’t.  Often, I get people on board who are like me and wanting to get experience or need new material for their showreel, so we get together to bring the project together – I’ve got 1 in the pipe line right now
  3. film your work – if you are doing a live show, film it, once again, see if you can get the cast on board, as their maybe others who need material and this is a way to not only help yourself, but others.  This isn’t always the best material, as what looks good on stage, doesn’t look great on film, but it’s better than nadda.

 

Self submitting

Once you have your material, then there’s the edit.  I’ve found things like Windows Movie Maker works fine to create and cut my own showreel.  It’s not as professional, as a professional, but if you need something sooner rather than later, then this is a great foot forward.

Iphone camera

Iphone camera

Often you have to self submit, so using the camera on your phone is ideal and learning how to send short films over the internet is also something to get a grasp of.  I had to self submit to something while on holiday in Holland and I’m pleased to say, I got the job, so it’s worth getting your head around simple editing.  It can make a huge difference and it doesn’t have to be perfect.  Time and time again I hear from casting people and agents, they can see you act, that’s all they care about, is that they can see that.  They are willing to look past a poorly shot piece, just make sure they can hear you and see you well enough to be able to actually see you act!

It really is an essential tool, so get started ASAP at finding the opportunities to get those samples.  The showreel itself doesn’t need to be long, somewhere between 1 to 3 minutes is enough.  It quite a short time, you could have something and be that step closer to finding an agent or your next acting job.

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Analysis Paralysis

Not sure if Clint Eastwood is the man who came up with the phrase ‘Analysis Paralysis’, but it’s

Clint Eastwood

Clint Eastwood

worth a read of this article to understand why I say, to over analyze a script may not help you much in the end, other than look very clever, but still not get into the role.

My training with the Impulse Theatre, really pushed the boat out on this ‘sacred cow’ of acting – analysing a script.  I don’t.  I now have a very simple exercise where I answer certain questions that centre around the facts of the script and then react to my fellow actor.  It’s incredibly simple and incredibly effective.  This works for singers as much as for actors.

I’m constantly saying to my students – keep it simple.  Sometimes, I fear as a performer, that keeping things simple equates to being boring or not engaging enough.  Simplicity is one of the hardest things to find sometimes for performers, as we want to be big and really connect, but having a ‘jazz hands’ moment of bigness doesn’t necessarily help me to connect with anyone, other than possibly my own ego or my hands!  Not really what I find directors are looking for.

I find analysis, after the fact, is great, as it feeds my intellect, which demands a lot of attention, so I often will feed it with that understanding once I’ve started a run, rather than before.  My experience has led to new discoveries because I’m not bound too much by ‘greatly prepared’ analysis of a song or play or whatever.  I just let the words speak for themselves through me, rather than have the whole thing planned out.

The other problem with having it all planned out before, is it doesn’t allow me to live in the moment, as often happens in life, things go wrong or very right, if I just stick to what I’ve made sure will happen, then I miss the gift of what is happening now or seeing what I may need to do to make adjustments.  This approach to my work I’ve found it risky, exciting and frightening because I just don’t know what will happen next, but who needs a roller coaster when I can just get up on stage night after night and ride the unknown of that evening’s performance, like it’s the first time for everything.

Don’t get me wrong, this doesn’t mean I improvise my way through every night, I do what the director(s) asks of me, but I don’t go out there over thinking it.  I just trust/know I will do what I need to do when I need to do it and I’ll get the lines as near perfect as possible.  I’m not there to make it harder by ‘winging’ it with my lines, queues or staging for my director(s) or actor(s).

This to me is the wonderful achievement that Sanford Meisner talks a lot about of living truthfully in imaginary of circumstances.

Sanford Meisner

Sanford Meisner

If you’d like to read more on this, check out page 77, at the bottom of this excerpt from a book on acting.

I believe there are many roads to Rome, so I believe that my way is not the way for all people, so what do you do to help you find that truthfulness in your work?  Comments welcome below:

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Acting Networking for Brighton

Now this post, may not be the most beautiful, but it could prove very useful to many of you out there.  Like any business the more you know the people you want to work with the better, so if you are needing experience or just want to get used to networking what better places to start than in your own backyard and then you can hone in on the ones you really want to work with.

Time and time again, I get students asking me all sorts of questions, well I’ve found there are some pretty useful websites out there that can be helpful, some are more useful to those just starting, but I’m hoping there will be something for everyone here that can help you at whatever level you are at, plus, I always encourage you to add comments of anything useful you may find!

So here goes….

Networking in Brighton

 

Brighton Equity Branch

They meet, usually, on the first Saturday morning of the month and it’s a great way to meet professionals in the local business and ask any questions, especially if you are having some problems in the industry.  You don’t have to be a member to join in, you can just go along.  Facebook page

Shooters in the Pub

A free evening, on the first Monday of the month, all things to do with local film/TV industry people – worth getting to know them and see what is being put on.  Facebook page

SPACE

Or otherwise known as: Southern Performers and Creative Energies, this is usually a paid event, but with brilliant speakers, they are not on a consistent date, so check out their Facebook page for details.

Film Professional Networking

This is a relatively new group which has started up in Brighton, but it’s worth checking it out, as it’s been very popular in London.  Facebook page

Straight Outta Brighton

This is a new networking group for film and such media.  I went along to the first one and there were a lot of people there and a lot of new faces, so worth going along to their next event.  It’s free.  Facebook page

I would add to these that just going along to any event where there are going to be like-minded people, like acting classes, workshops, etc, will, also help.

Some other useful facebook pages/websites are:

Brighton Meisner

ACT

Brighton Actors

The Actors Centre

Sadly, for singers, I’ve not seen much, other than going out to open mic nights and click here to find a great website that lists that, but otherwise there isn’t a lot out there for the singing crowd in Brighton.  For the classical singer willing to do contemporary singing, there is New Music Brighton.

As to theatre based nights, well, sadly, a lot of these have stopped, but would love to add any that are still running or have started up again, just drop me a line!

Please let me know of any others in the comments box below and I’ll update this post!

 

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The Headless Horseman Rides Again

Headless Horseman

Headless Horseman

What better theme for October than the Headless Horseman!  So what does this have to do with performing, you may say, ah, well, that’s exactly what I want to address today!

So often I’ve heard from students, ‘I feel like I act or sing from my neck up’ and their body/voice feels like it’s not connected and they don’t have any control over it.  An example would be, those pesky hands that just seem to have a mind of their own and either fly up when you don’t want them to or you have to pin them down to your sides and they just can’t or won’t move at all.

I know that feeling and have done several approaches to re-connect my head and body, so they work as one, feel apart of me and I can perform using all of it, rather than just parts.  I’ve been really lucky, that one of the first things I did was dance training as a teenager, so that really got me into knowing the body well and to have a heightened sense of when it’s working or not working physically for me.  That didn’t always mean I knew what to do to correct it, though.  So, I’ve spent years trying to find ways to feel in touch with my body.  This training, also, gave me a heightened awareness to see and feel what is going on in others, so it’s easier for me to try to raise awareness in others or find ways to deal with it that are unique to each student.

So, what are some of the ways to re-attach your head?

One thing I can say and you may have noticed, is that I am not going to promise you

Reconnecting head and body

Reconnecting head and body

comfort.  I’ve heard a lot of people say, I want to be ‘comfortable’ on stage.  ‘Comfort’ doesn’t come into this and it’s not that you won’t feel comfortable that depends on the character and what they are going through or the themes behind the song you are singing.  It’s not, often, on any stage about ‘comfort’.  If anything it’s about being ‘comfortable’ with being ‘uncomfortable’ on stage.

The stage is a heightened place, where everything tends to be larger than life.  Now, you maybe saying that I work in TV or film where everything is small or on a concert, sorry, it’s not about the size of what you are doing, it’s the emotions behind it, they are all there, trying to get out and to be said to the outside world.  They don’t always come out in nice little neat rows either, you can feel happy, sad and angry all at the same time.

Now, why am I talking about emotions when we started with a locked body or disconnected body.  Often, when we feel fear, we lose touch with our sense of feel, it’s quite common like in a car accident, a person can’t feel anything, but seems to be OK and then, once the shock of the event wears off, the feelings rush in.  Now, this is an extreme example of how the body can react in a highly stressful situation, what I try to help people with, is to be OK with the extra stress of performance and be in touch with your body as well.

When I was first training, I had a lot of teachers saying that they liked my work, but I was either making it too complicated or that I was disconnected from my body, too much in the head.  I’m a real thinker, especially when I was put in front of people, as I’m not keen on big groups – believe me this is not lost on me – the irony, now that I have chosen this career as my career.  So I needed to reconnect and be OK with my feelings that were going on.  Things like, ‘Am I doing this right? or ‘The teacher just asked me to do this thing, but I’m not sure of what that is?’ or whatever.  Even just talking about the lack of connection would make me go even further into it because I just didn’t know anything different.

So here are some ideas of what you can do….

Niki Flacks is a great one for this work and she does classes at the Actors Centre (London) every so often, but it’s not for the faint of heart, she really gets your emotions going and reconnects you to not only your body/voice, but all those feelings that can be frozen inside.

She comes over from the US, so you really have to be on the ball to catch one of her classes.  To help you, sign up for her Facebook and Twitter feeds and watch out for when she is coming next.

Letting the emotions out!

Letting the emotions out!

Next, well, I’ve found the Meisner work is brilliant, it’s all about getting in touch with all those ‘bad’ habits and exploring new ways to deal with them that are organic to you.

For that in Brighton, there are a few, but my Favourite is Brighton Meisner.

In London, Scott Williams and the Impulse Theatre are the ones I would highly recommend for this work, they are both listed on my links page, so click here to check that out.

Now, I know you may say, if you are a singer reading this, it’s all about acting approaches, all of this applies to any performing and is for anyone who is feeling that disconnect with their work.  I’ve also found the of Delia Lindon very useful (Shoreham), as well as working with Roy Hart teachers – most of these, as I know are in North America.

Also….

For singers (Hove), you can, also take one to one singing lessons or check out my new solo group lessons, by clicking here!  I’m very keen to help people find ways of reconnecting their head and body.

For the actors (Brighton), you can check out when I’m doing the acting class here!

If you can’t afford to do any of these ideas, here’s some stuff you can do:

Stamp your feet when you realise you’ve lost connect with your body.  They are the furthest away from your head, so reconnecting to them can help bring it all back together.  Now you may think this is odd, but, in the case of a strong monologue or very emotional song, it’s easy to make this a part of how to bring the piece across.

Stamp your foot

Stamp your foot

Or, you can practise this in front of a ‘safe’ audience.  Now how do I define a ‘safe audience’, they are people who will watch and listen to you and only say nice things.  You can create this group by telling them, they are not allowed to criticise you, merely enjoy what you do, that way you and they know that they are only there to support you in a positive, friendly and kind manner.

If your hands are ‘creatures’ that don’t belong to you, shake them out, wring them, get back in touch with them.  Maybe even grab them if they are flying around and allow your frustration with them to come out in your monologue, scene or song.  This is what rehearsal is for, but the worst thing you can do as a performer is suppress them.  The body needs to move and by holding onto and not allowing them movement, can only make the matter worse.  So start to practise allowing your awareness of what is going on and then, most likely, do the opposite.

Move It!

Move It!

So if your hands are the type that don’t move at all, fake it!  Move them, find what their natural speech or pattern needs to be.  You don’t want to make it the same every time, so explore.  Here’s some online inspiration with Madagascar – I like to Move it!

A great one for helping you when you lose your lines is to move, move around the stage, just move or, if for some reason you are directed to not move, move something, anything, your neck, your fingers, wherever you are noticing that you are ceasing up, move it – even if that means you need to do a little dance with your hips to get your legs to unlock.  So you move and then let go, it’s not about doing the movement forever, just to shake it out in a way.  If it’s frustration, let it out – whether that’s through your voice or body – they both work.

Funky Chicken dance

Funky Chicken dance

Maybe just learn a funky chicken dance as a default, just to keep yourself amused, having fun and enjoying a fun moment.  See, the Headless Horseman was just misunderstood, really he just needed to get his head and body moving again!

Love to hear your thoughts, as I’m sure I’ve not covered every possible situation….

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Roles of the Play

This is very similar to that childs toy! May not look like much, but has secret possibilities.

This is very similar to that child’s toy! May not look like much, but has secret possibilities.

I love to play, seems I’ve never lost that child-like wonder of fun at some of the simplest of things. Like I’m still amazed at how intricate children’s toys can be. I don’t have any kids of my own, but I met with a Nova Scotia friend and her new baby in London for a coffee and her daughters’ toy was quite a fascination for me, maybe not for as long as it is for a child, but still enough to hold my attention at all the things the little toy could do.

So hence, I love the fact that I can do Plays now, as an adult, and that child-like quality and curiosity is a vital part of what I need to do what I do well, whether that is in a play, TV, film, opera, musical, or whatever. But, I’ve since learned, that it’s not all play when it comes to the structure or hierarchy of, dare I say, ‘best business practices’ and this is where I wish to concentrate this week’s blog post on, so that you may be able to learn, what I learned after many years and many blurred lines of ‘best business practice’ in the roles of who does what and why.

It was Scott Williams at the Impulse Theatre who really brought clarity for the roles in a production, so here goes, as I understand it.

Director

Director's Chair

Director’s Chair

The director is there to direct, seems obvious right? Well, often, I find performers wish to direct as well, this shows up in situations where a fellow performer might say:

‘Excuse me, but when you do this (whatever this is), it doesn’t work for me or I don’t have enough room or whatever, would you just make an adjustment of some kind?’

Now, this is the director’s role, not your fellow performer, so in this situation, best thing to do is go to the director, not your fellow performer and explain the problem and work it out.

Why is this important?

Well, because they can actually see what’s going on, a performer can only see what they see and the director might want what is actually happening to happen, so let them do their job.

Music Director

Now, this one is a lot like the previous one, only about the music.

What do you do when the Music Director and the Director have contrary message?

This is one I’ve encountered a lot! What I have always done is, encourage them to talk it out, it’s not my problem to fix, so kindly and politely ask them to talk it through. If they don’t, you may need to arrange the situation where all 3 of you are together and raise it then.

Stage Manager

Stage Manager

Stage Manager

This is a very important person, especially when you get into production and, often, they can seem like the scariest, as they tend to shout more than speak. Their role is very high pressured because not only are they managing you to get on stage on time, they are managing the lighting, the musicians (if they are involved), the performers and all sets and queues. So this is a person you never wish to piss-off! Even if they are the grumpiest sod on earth, do your best to follow everything they ask of you because if something goes wrong, they are the person you will need to turn to in a production. As, once the rehearsals are over and opening night has started, the director is gone and the stage manager has taken over their role to ensure that what the director wanted originally is still happening after 50 shows. So they are your main support in times of trouble when things can get a bit ‘loose’ because the show has been running for a while or another performer changes something without any authority from the director or the stage manager.

In all intense purposes they become the voice of the director, so if the director happens to drop by during the run, they are likely the one to be telling you any notes from the director.

So, to help you get on the side of the stage manager, show up to everything on time. If you can’t make sure you have their phone number, so you can let them know ASAP why you can’t be there. Do not argue or have a bad attitude towards them, even when they may be surly to you. As I said, most likely they are dealing with a lot of issues at once, so they don’t have the time to always be polite and nice. If you are having problems with anything on stage or even off, talk to them, they are your first port of call on how to sort the problem out.  Always say thank you to them!

One big piece of advice for all these 3 main roles in a production is use them, talk to them, they are there to help you sort any problems. So often I’ve encounter performers who do not wish to raise a problem with a director of any kind because of their fear of looking bad or, maybe, deep down they know that what they are doing is wrong, for example, asking another performer to change something without consulting the director or hoping that the other performer will raise the issue for them – watch out, if it’s not your problem, let them do that themselves 1st!

Your Fellow Performer/Instrumentalist

Performers

Performers

As far as I’m concerned, everyone is equal in importance of their role in a production of any kind. If you don’t have the players, what is the point of a director of any kind?

What is best working practise when other performers?

Well, it’s pretty much what I’ve already said, your role as a performer is to learn your lines, your music, know your staging and play the part. That’s it; the rest is likely to be someone else’s role.

What happens when the roles are blurred?

Now, I’ve yet to do a production where all these roles are so well-defined. Quite often, people cross into more than one role, but what I’ve outlined here are some of the main roles which are in any production because they need to be, after that, for all sorts of reasons – budget, variety of abilities, etc. You can find a costume mistress who is a fellow performer or even, a director who is a fellow performer, so what do you do?

Still the same thing, you just take on board that sometimes you are talking to the director and sometimes you are talking with a performer. This may sound a bit schizophrenic, but really, we do this all the time, we’re just always aware of it. Like in life, you are someone’s partner or friend or dish washer, whatever?! You don’t act or talk consciously in a way that seems odd in those situations, but you also are not likely to talk to your lover the same way you talk to your friend or your boss at that day job! I think in the performing arts, for some reason, we can lose track of this because we all want to do well and get along, so we can forget that there is structure and to use that structure as much as possible, especially when there is conflict or differing opinions or a question.

What do you do when the directors don’t want to direct?

Now this happens a lot! So what happens when the director says, just work it out for yourselves, personally, I would push the point a bit and say, it’s not my role to direct and I really need some help on this, as I can’t see the stage like you do.

If something like that doesn’t work, then you have a few options, you can go to another director, say the music director if there is one or the stage manager or assistant director of any kind to see if they will help. If that fails, then, yes, you can try to work it out between you, if it’s  serious enough, for example, someone might get hurt if you don’t find a solution otherwise you can accept that if it’s not a big deal to the director, it’s not likely a big deal at all!

This leads nicely to when can you play and when do you absolutely need to be directed or choreographed.

Today, there is this huge movement to ad lib or improvising the work – I have my options on this, but I may save this for another day, as really, I don’t see the point of a director or writer, if you are going to let your performers do all the work for you. Still, things are what they are and, of course, you need to see what the performers bring to the performance naturally, before you go in and put your stamp on as a good director or guide them towards the ‘concept’ you may have for the piece.

But there are 2 definite times when this ‘feeling around’ doesn’t work. It involves physical violence and sexual scenes.

Here are 2 examples of these I’ve recently encountered:

Choreography

Choreography

A young boy was injured in a production because he was hit by a sword. Now, I don’t know all the in’s and out’s about it, but let’s suffice to say, something went wrong, it’s NEVER OUR JOB TO PUT OUR LIVES OR BODIES AT RISK. So, these scenes need to be choreographed and then practiced before every show, with all members involved, so that such an accident can be avoided – you never improvise a scene of violence.

To show another example of this, was when I went for a student film audition, they asked me to improvise violence for them, it was a drunken fight, well, I just said no. I am not going to improv a violent event because I don’t want to accidentally be punched in the face by another person by accident.  It didn’t leave me, the performer feeling confident in the directors ability to direct either, if they didn’t know this basic understanding of how to deal with this situation, I wasn’t too keen to work with them, needless to say, I didn’t do the piece, but then, I didn’t want to either, so I gave the director an easy exit and wished them the best with their project.

So I’m not against exploring what can come out of performers and scripts/scores, but not at the cost of the performers physical wellbeing or their mental health.

This leads to the mental. Sexual scenes must be choreographed as well, this is a very vulnerable or delicate situation at the best of times, let alone when you have a room full of people watching you.

My example for this one is personal, I had a performer on stage, during a funeral scene try to grab my breast. It was inappropriate, not directed to do so and didn’t make any sense? I managed to get out of it OK, I was quite young at the time, so, sadly, didn’t take it further because, no one had told me how to deal with that situation well, so I’m trying to break that by telling you now.

Performers need to feel safe and confident in both these situations, if they don’t, then something needs to be done either through the director or you always have the right to leave a production. It’s never worth risking your physical or mental wellbeing for, no matter how much a director says it is or how useful they maybe to your career – black mail is never an acceptable option.

Why does this work?

It works because you have agreed, hopefully with your director, exactly what is going to happen and when and, in both the violent or sexual situation, you can let the passion fly, but know you will not be hurt.  This may seem stilted at first, but believe me, that’s better than not knowing or agreeing anything and hoping for the best, that’s when problems start.

Sadly, this is something I don’t feel is talked about nearly enough with performers, stage crew or instrumentalists. Really, every institution which teaches any form of performing, needs to add this to their curriculum, as I feel it is not made clear enough on how to deal with these tough and often blurred situations in the performing world.

So, really, this goes out to performers and directors, please know your role and make the play safe and fun!

All this applies to film, TV or any visual media as well.  This isn’t just for stage, it’s just in film and TV there are even more roles required because there are so many people involved in the creation of a media based event.  I’ve just broken this down to its simpliest and most essential roles, but the same principles apply to all roles in any production or type of production.

Would love to hear your thoughts on this, possibly hot topic! Just add them below:

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Discomfortable?

Therapist Couch

Therapist Couch

You know the image of a patient as he lies down on the therapists couch and the doctor asks, ‘Comfortable?’ as if it’s a signal to begin. I can’t say I’ve actually laid on too many doctors couches, but I do know that moment of discomfort in a place where I’ve been asked if I am comfortable.

My experiences on the stage can range from comfortable to discomfort, this, often depends on the characters needs and the type of show it is, but, often, I’m guaranteed before I go in front of someone on stage or for a presentation, I am feeling some form of discomfort that has nothing to do with these things, it only has to do with me. I’ve heard phrases that ‘this means you’re ready’ or my all-time favourite question before going on stage – ‘nervous?’ Well, if I wasn’t before, I am now, just cause you asked and are forcing me to look at it?!

So what is really behind that discomfort and how am I dealing with that inner dialogue when I’m in my discomfort?

Well, firstly, I think it’s great to name the discomfort, as then, it’s not so vague and it’s easier to come to terms with what you can and cannot do about it. So, name the emotion or is it just a physical thing, like you have something poking into the side of you which doesn’t need to be there? Either way, it’s gonna be easier to pluck it out, if you know what you are talking about. Yet, it can be hard to name an emotion and be OK with saying that to others. Why is that?
Well, that leads nicely to the inner dialogue or as can be called the ego, inner critic or negative thoughts or whatever, I go for inner critic, as that is what sits with me. Who ever said it was wrong to say, I’m feeling scared or angry or jealous? I can’t recall anyone who ever said,’You can’t say you are afraid.’ Might of heard it in a movie once? It was far more subtle for me. It was a behaviour thing, that my inner critic helped me find: ‘Look over there! Joey doesn’t seem to be having a problem with that, so why are you being such a fraidy cat?’ or ‘It’s easy for them, what’s wrong with you?’ There is one thing my inner critic is good at its something like this to grab onto and use for a lifetime of ‘no wonder you aren’t getting anywhere, you are such a fraidy cat.’

I know it doesn’t help that I, literally, got a degree to learn how to critic well. That was a lot of what training is about – being able to look at what you or others do and find ways to do it ‘better’, which of course, in the arts, is hardly quantifiable. I’m someone who likes to do well at

Monkey on my Back

Monkey on my Back

what I do, so, in a way, by learning how to critic well, at an A level standard, I was learning how to judge and not always nicely or usefully AND that can be spectacularly wrong! So when it’s used to review your work, I don’t think it’s too bad, but when it gets out of hand and becomes the monster inside or as I affectionately call it, the ‘monkey on my back’.

How am I going to bring it back to reviewing, rather than destroying my confidence?

Who's Talk'n?

Who’s Talk’n?

I’ve had some great, unsolicited advice on how to deal with it and I do my best to do this. Whatever is happening around me or in front of me – say for instance, my fellow actor, they are a gift. There is much to keep me occupied by keeping my attention on them and ignoring my inner critic. So when my inner head dialogue starts, things like, ‘Does the director really know what they are doing?’ or ‘This actor isn’t doing what they should’ or ‘this isn’t working for me’ or ‘What’s my motivation?’ or ‘there’s such a cute guy in the front row, how can I get his attention?’.
For me, it’s all about changing the harsh judgement to just noticing. For example: ‘The director can see things I’m not seeing, leave him to do his job.’ Or ‘the actor blinked’ or ‘how can I find a way to make this work for me?’ ‘Trust, I know what I am doing, even if I can’t see it right now.’ ‘There’s a cute guy in the front row.’ Basically, stick to the facts as I know them and leave my talents to work the rest out either later or not at all, cause, I’ve just figured it out by getting through it and, quite possibly, discover something new that I never knew I could do!

How do I do this before I go on stage?

So, how does this work, when I’m not even on stage or, as I’ve often experienced, you are on stage, but the lights aren’t up yet, but my head can be racing. Here is where I really learn to distract myself with the facts of what is, as I see it. Scott Williams, my acting teacher, gave me the advice to accept all that is at the moment and use it. So how does this look, well, here’s an example, one time, I was waiting on stage, I could see the audience, who were only a few feet away and someone was on their mobile in the darkness, they weren’t turning it off, they were

No Mobiles

No Mobiles

actually sitting their using it right in front of me and it was quite clear they didn’t care that the show was about to begin and the announcement to turn off your phone was not for them. Great ground for my inner critic to have a heyday! So what did I do, I got pissed off, I said to myself, ‘Fine, I’m pissed off that someone cares so little to be here and I’m OK with that and Scott said to use it and be OK with it.’ (I have to be honest, my language was not so polite, but as this is on the internet, I’m having to censor myself.) Bam, the lights went up and I was straight into the scene and engaged with my fellow actors. My inner critic didn’t have a chance!

Or another is:

Before I go onstage, I’ll try and push the solid brick wall of the stage over. Impossible I know, but making something physical and distracting myself in this manner, really helps me to literally push out the unhelpful thoughts or feelings I maybe having before walking on stage or that distracting person, who maybe asking me the dreaded question, ‘ Am I nervous?’

Pushing against that wall

Pushing against that wall

Another golden nugget for me to talk to my inner critic is to say, ‘I’ll talk to you later. Right now I have a show to do.’ Then I make sure I do, so I have a kinda debrief, not immediately after, but the next day or whenever a good length of time after the event is, but, always giving

Just hav'n a chat.

Just hav’n a chat.

myself a day. What I’ve found when I’ve done this, is a I get a much more useful debrief because I’m not ignoring that part of myself and it’s coming from a less heighten place, but I’ve had time to get through whatever ‘discomfort’ I maybe having and am finding my comfort.

Where is your comfort zone?

Comments welcome below:

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Back to Basics – do you need training or not?

I had a student the other day, ask me, ‘Do I need to go get some acting training and where?’  Or from my own point of view when is a good time to go back to your training?

The longer I’ve been in the entertainment industry, the more I’ve learned that keeping my skill set up can be a never-ending string thing ….  So when is too much and when is too little, well, I think this is a personal choice.  There are a lot of performers with no ‘formal’ training, and do perfectly fine, but, I’ve had formal and informal, so I can honestly say, I’ve seen all sides from the training perspective.

Naturally, learning on the job, is a great way to go, but it doesn’t always build confidence, at least not right away, as, often that can lead to mistakes quite quickly, but I’m not a ‘rah, rah’ person for the ‘formal’ route either, as it nearly destroyed me, as I had thought an educational institution was there to help you grow and develop – well, in my experience that wasn’t the case.  I don’t wish to go into it in any detail, but suffice to say, I have not gone back.

So, what do I mean by ‘informal training’ this isn’t really attached to any university or college, for me, more of an independent approach, which is positive and supportive.  For example, as in my case, I did the Impulse Theatre with Scott Williams, in London.  This was exactly what I needed and when I needed it, as I was having another crisis of faith in my role in the industry.  I was doing a wide variety of classes at the Actors Centre at the time and everyone was talking about this Scott Williams and saying crazy things like, ‘You are wearing a blue shirt,’ then they would burst out laughing and sing his praises.  This peaked my curiosity and, well, the long and short of it was, I did the 2 year course and I’ve not looked back since.  In fact, I’m now one of the director/teachers at Brighton Meisner.  Didn’t think I would do that when I started with Scott!

Top Girls with Impulse Theatre

Top Girls with Impulse Theatre

For me, this was an instinct thing, I had reached a point, that I knew what I didn’t like anymore and when I encountered this, it was exactly what I needed.  I’m very grateful I did it.  I often find the best place to start is with the ‘don’t wants’ in life and then eventually, I’ve found what I wanted and then I go after it with all my ability.

Like I said, I was taking classes at the Actors Centre, at the time and I still do take classes, more just to keep my skills up or to learn new ones.  Mostly, lately, they’ve been more on the admin and business side of things, as I won a scholarship to start ‘Other Dream Job’ with Dallas Travers – the actors advocate.  As many of you know, I was on a round the world trip last year, as a result of that, I had blogged every week to family and friends, so my husband and I decided we wanted to start a new side business, which is now on its legs and starting to walk.  At the time of looking at this was the time when I entered the competition to win the scholarship and, lo and behold, I won!  I was 1 of 5 people who won, with hundreds who had entered, so, once again, I am very grateful.  I have a new side business I love and it fits in nicely with my performing work.  Plus, it’s got me going with my performing blogging with more consistency and clarity.

The biggest thing I can offer to others about this is, do as much homework about a place of study as you can, ask others who have done the course or ask about the teacher/director who runs it.  If you can – meet them or do a drop in.  Actors Centre is a great place for that in London and there are tons of drop in classes all around Brighton.  From there you can find out if it’s a ‘right fit’ for you or trust that if this isn’t a route for you now, just go out and do it.  You can change your mind at any point.  I have learned that it’s all about a lifetime and it will work out in whatever way it needs to, even if I can go a little astray at times.  An example of this, for me is, I tried improv and enjoyed it, but it still wasn’t quite hitting the spot, so I’m glad I did it, with the Maydays in Brighton, but I found out that I am not needing it, but I can do it if necessary.  Now, I was lucky, I know a lot of people who are doing this, so it was easy for me to find them and to do their course.  I found them good, I just didn’t fall in love with the technique, like I did with the Meisner work, but it’s all proved useful.  I can write about it here!

Me, the opera singer, at least I'm not fat with horns on my head - this is a beautiful costume!

Me, the opera singer, at least I’m not fat with horns on my head – this is a beautiful costume!

Also, as many of you know, I am a trained opera singer, now this was an area I ended up in, rather than I chose it outright.  The story goes like this – I’m a younger sister to an older brother who I did whatever he did when we were kids, so he was into sports = I was into sports.  Well all that changed when I hit 13, I went from wanting to do everything he did to wanting to do nothing he did, so I went into the arts.  It looked like fun and I knew he would never do it.  So I thought, I’d start with being an actress.  I tried it in high school, only to find that our one acting teacher in the school, taught acting like – ‘melt like an ice cream’ or ‘sway like a tree’.  This was not for me, I had understood acting was about being real and feeling your feelings.  It had nothing to do with trees or ice cream feelings, so I wanted none of that, so I took dance lessons.  I had a friend who was doing it and she loved it and I thought I could keep fit.  Turned out I had a bit of a talent for it, but as I had injured my leg as a teenager, I just didn’t see any longevity in that, so singing.  Only this was a case of learning classical singing, as everyone said that would be the best technique to learn, well, once again, seems I had a bit of a talent for it, so when people said, ‘You should be an opera singer’, I went, ‘Oh, OK.’  I didn’t know the first thing about it – I thought it was all fat ladies with big horns on their heads screaming.

My idea of an opera singer!

My idea of an opera singer!

I just couldn’t see how that would work for me and, guess what, it hasn’t really.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m grateful for the incredible singing skills I have – they were right about the technique, but my heart just wasn’t into it.  (Just an insert to those who know me as an opera singer – don’t worry, I still sing, just in my own way which is a lot more fun and engaging – check out my ‘Songs from the Heart evenings‘.)  So I’ve come back to acting, but with an incredible ability to sing well.  I pretty much sing anything, it just may not sound like the original, but it’s likely to have a lot of style and flair.

I had forgotten about where this all started, which was to act.  So, in some ways, I’ve come full circle and what an incredible journey it’s been and it’s far from over.  I just have a very unique and strong skill set, which I am now passing onto others, seems teaching is a bit of a buzz for me, but once again, I found that I didn’t want to teach in some of the more traditional sense of the word.  I like group classes, it just works better for me and I can reach a much wider group and it fits with my performing side quite well – another side business.  So, really, at heart I’m what is known as an entrepreneur in the business world.

As you can see, I’m constantly learning and sharing and doing what I can to do the career which, in some ways chose me.  It led me down roads I never expected to travel when I was a teenager.  I had dreams of becoming an astronaut or an archaelogist or a pilot – those not so normal areas.  Somehow I ended up being who I am and it seems to work for me.  As far as the continued training, I’m looking to crack the voice over world – my dream is to be a Disney character in an animated feature – I know, it’s not normal, but I guess that is one thing that hasn’t changed – I was never normal, never really strove too much to be normal and I’m now loving what makes me – me!

So I’m a kinda opera singing, voice over, acting, teaching, blogging, entrepreneur crazy person.  Not the greatest of U.S.P’s, but it does cover a lot of me, at least on the work side.  On the personal side I’m a movie loving, live performance watching, fine wine and whiskey drinking, tea loving, walking, cycling around town nut.

Know any others like me?  What are you like and what has your training been like?  Are you still doing it?

They say learning new things all the time is good for the brain as you get older – I think mine may be a bit on overload on my learning curves lately!

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Fear when Performing – Can you hear the Jaws music?

I remember when I 1st went to Universal Studios Theme Park with the Jaws ride – not

From More or Lesque in London

From More or Lesque in London

sure it’s still there, but it terrified me, as a little girl.  That theme music is what did it to me!  I bet you can hear it now, if you saw it as I 1st did.

Fear, such an ever present feeling in a performer’s life!  I’m now at the point that I say, ‘I don’t need to go to horror movies, my fear levels are quite high enough, thank you very much!’

Yet people think I’m fearless because I stand up in front of people and perform.  For what I say is the more rational person, this would be their worst nightmare, yet I thrive – I love it.  That’s not to say I don’t have fear, I do.

So how have I dealt with my fear when performing?  Well, let me describe some of the fear I have had and still can have to deal with.  It’s mainly to do with the fear of what other people think or my acting training has made me very aware of, as my inner critic or ego.  Boy is that person mean sometimes.  Gets me into all sorts of trouble, if I let it.  (This is where it can get a bit schizophrenic, but hey, we’re all a bit nuts to be in the entertainment industry.  I just see it as more along the lines of eccentricity rather than out-and-out crazy.)  So, it’s the negative or over ego boosting voice in the head.  The one that tells me how awful or wonderful I am.  Neither, I find, are useful, as it’s all inside me and I’m working on my performing work to be about what is outside me and, believe me, there is enough to keep me occupied, if I let it.  Being in the moment of what the wonderful fellow performers and audience are giving me with their attention or lack of it, as the case maybe, is the best way to get past any fear!

Back to the question I started in the last paragraph.  Well, I’m human and that voice can sneak in, I’m just better at saying, ‘I’ll talk to you later, when I have time to deal with your need to judge, but for now, I’d rather not.  I’ve a more interesting person or event going on in front of me.’  Especially, as I can’t see what I am doing that may or may not be going well.  I am not the director, writer or audience who are watching and have the view on the event.  As much as my ego may want to tell me, ‘I am these people.’ and, may even say, ‘I need to be because X, Y or Z isn’t doing a good enough job in their role, so I am going to have to step in.’  How rude to even think such a thing of anyone!  There is no doubt that it is my ego who tells me I can do someone else’s job better than they can when I already have a job to do.  So I’m better off just going with what is in my parameters and keeping it that simple.  Keep the energy I have on what is in front of me, or beside me or even behind me, but whatever I do, do not keep it inside me and judging my own performance or anyone else’s, which I can’t see properly anyway!  Just react to whatever is there and enjoy the ride of not knowing what will happen next, rather than the one that says, ‘Oh, that went well, the audience laughed.’  Instead, I just let myself react to it in whatever way my character needs to, but keep moving forward with my energy, rather than the moment that has just passed and, therefore, means I’m no longer in this time, but judging the time that has gone by. So I could miss something far better than that moment because I’m too busy looking at what has already happened or I could miss that sword flying  my way because I’m too busy in my head not paying attention to what is happening right now and, guess what, get stabbed my a sword!  Ouch!  No thanks.

Hamlet with Butterfly Theatre, Buxton Festival

Hamlet with Butterfly Theatre, Buxton Festival

So about that fear in performing, well as long as I ride my energy forward, I’ll be great!  So how do I deal with the fear of getting out there and coming back off, well these are different, in a way.  The fears that hit before, well, I go back to being in the moment, like when I am on stage and do my best to stay there.  Afterwards, the inner critic may have a hey day of things to say – ‘Oh, that didn’t go very well, did it?’, ‘So I thought you knew that bit?’, ‘Wasn’t so and so brilliant or worse, wasn’t so and so awful?’  I think these are normal reactions because I’m human.  When I go out on a stage or set or whatever, I’m in a heightened place and you know what, when I’m up that high I got to come back down to find the ground again.  So, I do my best to be very gentle, which is why I see myself as a very sensitive person.  I need to know that I’m easily bruised and can still be OK, after such a high.  I, now, try to set aside nice things for me, so have that hot bath or take a whole day off!  Reward, rather than punish me, so my body and mind have time to heal.  There is always a sense of loss after a show, film, performance of any kind is over – a coming back down.  Most likely, I’m coming from a place of being tired, irritable or, maybe, even angry, so I’m not going to show my best face at this point.  I can now recognise and be honest about that part, which is a huge blessing to understand why my negative voice may start to charge in.  Maybe, that is what I term as more ‘rational’ people don’t put themselves through this night after night, week after week, year after year.  They are sensitive too, but not willing to ride the highs and lows that you do as an artist.  Hats off to you!

Really, having written this, I believe this more than ever, that we who are the performers or artists of any kind of the world, are very brave and we deserve a better understanding of what we do and why we do it.  I’ve met some glib people in my life, who have said how lazy or unreliable or, even, shallow a performer can be.  I hope by what I’ve written, someone, even, if it’s only one person, can come to a better understanding and appreciation what working in the entertainment industry is like, but for me, it beats any day job, hands down.  I am very appreciative I’ve been able to do what I have and with so many wonderful teachers and people along the way.

So I say, face your fear and do it anyway, just be prepared with a nice cupcake of come down and it’ll be OK.

What are your thoughts and experiences of working through the fear?  Let me know below:

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Why I Ride my Bike…. & Learning Lines

I’m lucky.  I grew up in the wilds of Canada.  Literally, as a kid I had a huge forest out in my back yard where I played all sorts of imaginary games for hours, days on end with my friends.

Canadian Forest

Canadian Forest

“So what?”  You may say, well, its that imaginative world that has helped me to become and enjoy the world of performing.  The endless hours of learning to make things up, is an incredible skill, one, as adults we can forget.

So, what does this have to do with riding my bike?  Two things, keeps me in good physical shape and allows me that kid like feeling of imagining things and enjoying the ride as I did when I was a kid.  I now live in the very urban world of Hove (actually! Can’t resist, can ya!)

Bike

My borrowed bike – such fun!

Physical exercise is so key to what I have learned as a performer.  I started out as a dancer, but realised, due to teenage injuries, this was not going to be a good long-term career choice and to be honest, I, really preferred, acting, so I became a singer.  I know that part doesn’t make sense (I’ll tell ya about that another day), but I came back to the ‘straight acting’ and I’m loving my work.  Why do I love it? Because I’m able to learn that being physically active is so helpful to what I do.  As an actor and, even as a singer, being fit is vital.  I need to be able to move the way the character needs to move and this requires a body willing to respond like that of an athlete.  This doesn’t mean I need to be running marathons, but it needs to be flexible and strong to adapt to what the character demands.  So how do I do it with the crazy ever shifting lifestyle of a performer?  I make it a part of my life, my day.  I don’t own a car, haven’t needed it in Brighton and Hove, as the transport is brilliant, so I walk, bike, bus, train and plane.  All are within a short distance.  The bike and walking come out first.

If you are like me and doing something on your own is hard to stick to, then, do what I did.  I created a walking group.  This walking group now meets 3 times a week and is in its third year and I no longer run it.  I’m now known as the founder, which sits fine with me, but it works.  Not just for me, but for all the lovely people who have joined it.  Forgot to say, it’s speed walking, so not the little dawdle along, we are working our heart rates, as well as having some good conversations at 7:15 am on Hove Seafront – Monday, Wednesday and Friday.  All are welcome, click here for more details and it’s free!  That’s a huge factor for us performers who are not able to afford the expensive gyms.  So, I’m not saying start a walking group, but start something, plus you’ll have the added benefit of meeting ‘normal’ people, as I call them.

Now the bike, it was a way to get me out and about.  I’ve got the rain gear, the mud guards and the bell – so many people forget you are there?!  It’s one of the best ways to get around this city, plus it’s fun!  My favourite bit is going down the hill from Churchill Square – it’s an awesome run down and leaving the buses behind for a change, as they have to go a bit slower through there – Te he!  There’s that kid in me, just loving the ride!  Also, on my bike I’ve been able to really think things through or go back to that little girl who played in that enchanting forest in the back yard!  You’ll recognise me, I’ve got the bike with the flowers all over the basket, can’t stop being me!  I remember once, after a rehearsal for a show in Brighton, I was in floods of tears, as I use my bike to memorise lines, so needless to say, my part wasn’t a very happy part, but it did get me past some of the emotional stuff I needed to get past, as this was holding me up on saying the lines.  Riding my bike showed me that, because there was so much weight, maybe too much at the beginning, that needed to be let out, so that by the time the performance came, I was able to give it the clarity that the director was looking for.  Just glad it was late at night when I was doing this, as no one could see me.

Now, this leads nicely to my final point.  The kenetic (physical) memory is the strongest memory we have.  So I have found physically doing something, anything while learning lines, is the strongest ways to get it into me.  So I’m not just memorising with my mind, I’m memorising with my whole body.  Plus there’s an energy to it.  Why do you see that old cliche of an actor walking back and forth while learning lines?  Well, that’s why, there is just something about that physical movement that adds another layer to learning those pesky lines.  My favourite teacher on this is Niki Flacks, she was the first person who showed me that learning lines is not a can or can’t do thing.  It’s like any other muscle in the body, you can strengthen it the more you do it!  So she suggests folding a towel while learning lines, if you need to, so you always have the physical action along with the line learning.  Especially, when walking or riding a bike isn’t possible.  It’s not how big the action is, it’s just do something other than just learning the lines – use your body as well and you may find that the lines come from a more strong, secure and supported place in your mind and body!

So I say, go out, find ways to re-imagine, move your body with new friends and learn your lines in ways that are physically and mentally supportive of your work.  Oh yeah, get physical, let’s get into physical, let me hear your body talk….OK, for those of you who don’t know that tune, it’s an 80’s tune, with Olivia Newton John – Physical.  Up for a good laugh, watch the video!

Love to hear your thoughts, what do you do to keep fit? Learn lines? or keep the imagination & fun in your work?

 

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Don’t Sweat It!

In 2008, I posted this, so I wanted to give an update of how I deal with this better today:

Then…

Well, this is not an original topic but, it seems to be one I’m always battling. I seem to spend a lot of time working at the administration work of being a singer and a lot less at the actual act of singing! It always seems like everyone else just gets work so easily, so how do they do it? If you are one of those, who the work just keeps rolling in, please let me know your secret. I have got all the usual systems in place – website, an agent, constantly trolling wherever I can for auditions, etc… It’s just never ending and it never seems to take off of its own fruition. To give you any idea, take a look at my diary on my website.  That will give you an idea of what is actually on the horizon. There are a lot of possibilities, but only a few confirmed events.

London

Can’t do it all – photo from More or Lesque show

So if any of you have any pointers on what I could do to help get more performing work, please get back to me, I’d love to hear from you or if you are struggling like me, I would love to hear your struggles as well!

Speak to ya soon!

And Now…

So, how do I deal with this better today, well, in a nut shell, I don’t sweat the small stuff so much!  Also, I’ve really looked at my life and have worked on the things I can and can not change.  Like having all your ducks in a row does not mean you will get work.  I’ve done a lot of self-hustle to get what I have.  I’ve produced my own one woman show – Miss Givings – something I wasn’t even considering when I first put this post up.  It was just an idea floating around at the back of my head, which needed years to come to life.

I’ve had some great guidance over these years and the biggest has been to enjoy what you have.  So set time aside to go out and do things you love and not to get tunnel vision or go down too many rabbit holes of distraction.  In fact, I’ve found going to a museum I get the answers or ideas I need to find my way forward.

I, suppose, in a way, it culminated with last year, where I took a year out and went travelling around the world.  Now, as a performer, I thought this would be the death nells of my career, so far, it’s not so, but I am thinking differently and feeling a lot better about it.  Plus, it’s just awesome to have done such a great thing!

One thing I did read this last year, that success is best measured by what I achieve and how I set the parameters, not by someone else or that negative voice in the head that says, “Well you aren’t working or making tons of money or working in the West End or Covent Garden or the latest big movie!”  So I take back the things I can control, which are the little day to day goals and achieve those rather than the ones I can’t control, which are who hires me, when or for what.  As I try to say, I keep my side of the street clean, so that its easy for people to hire me because I’ve got the work ethic, skills and tools for the job ahead.

Tools can break down into, things like: up to date website, regular blog posts, keeping contact with key people in the industry, head shots, CV, showreel, etc.

Skills, well those are the singing and acting I do.  I keep them up by doing various things and sometimes that means I do classes or teach them.  Teaching is a great way to keep it all ticking over nicely.

Work ethic can be doing the daily practise, learning new music that I want to learn – just for the sake of it (I’m currently working on doing a tribute recital to Elizabeth Schwartzkopf and Hugo Wolf), eating well, sleeping well, setting time frames for things, etc.

You can do the old pie chart of the different parts of your life, click here for an online version example of this.

So, here are some ideas on what you can start to do, to enjoy your life:

  • take a hot bath
  • join a choir, if you’ve always wanted to sing
  • go to the museum, especially, if you’ve never been
  • do that thing you never thought you could, would or have the time for
  • read a book
  • listen to music
  • dance
  • go out for a great meal
  • have a picnic or bbq
  • go to a wine tasting/whisky/beer/etc
  • go to a tea tasting, this one I just loved when I did it!
  • swim with the manatee in Florida
  • go paragliding/parachuting/bungy jumping – even if you only do it once, it’s pretty awesome
  • ride a horse/camel/elephant – one of these is possible once in life
  • volunteer at something you love, like an animal shelter or for the elderly
  • create a walking group, I did this and have met oodles of new friends
  • go to the theatre or a live music event – just cause, not because you are watching anyone else or trying to get a job, remember why we got into this career!
  • go to the movies and get the expensive seats or a drive in!
  • sit in a park or garden and have a glass of champagne, just for being
  • go to a local shop that does pottery painting and make yourself a new cup
  • do an art class
  • learn the ukulele
  • call a friend to say ‘Hi’
  • write a hand written letter to someone
  • go to a sport match
  • join a meet up group

    India

    Riding a Camel for the first time!

I think I could come up with ideas for hours, but I think you get the gist.  Go out! Have some fun and the work will come and your ideas of what work you want to come will all come clearer.  Just don’t go down the ‘rabbit hole’ of only the singing.  It’s never ending and will not necessarily bring you the satisfaction and joy that life has to offer when you live a full life!

So, now share with me what ideas for a good time looks like to you, comments welcome below:

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